Author Archives: I'm Munition

I still listen to our song, day in, day out
For the sole purpose of reminding me to forget
That phantom utopia that only existed in the confines of my mind
That inflated ideal that I saw only because I wanted it to be
That dream that only found life in the dead of night

My most prominent magic trick:
Turning friends and acquaintances
Back into strangers

In this bar called LIFE
I walk to the counter
And request for a bottle
And a shot glass
The bottle has the label
"Pain, grief, suffering, 3 in 1"
And so I pour it into the glass
And take shot after another
And I wash it down
With whiskey as my chaser

No, I'm not crying; men don't cry
My eyes, they're just sweating
Because they're exhausted and tired
They're tired of seeing you with another guy
Tired of seeing your love go to someone else
Closing them doesn't stop
The perpetual flow of sweat from them
Because as they rest in darkness
They still see you with someone who's not me

The fact that I fell for you
Then fell for another after
Stands to show how deceitful
This thing in my chest is

Her heart pumps venom
Her mouth spews profanities
She was blessed to have such a body
But to have her would be a curse

21 years ago today
We joined the plethora of people on this world
As we took our first breath
And let out our first cry
That was the beginning of the struggle
The struggle to own our place in this world
The struggle to make a name for ourselves
And I hope that the culmination of our stay
Praying that it's far into the distant future
Has us as victors over our journeys
And not as villains in other people's stories

I'll let the tears hush me to sleep
While heartbreak sings me a lullaby
As I lie on this bed of caltrops
I fall into a bittersweet slumber

Yes, the heart has no bones
So it technically cannot break
But in my case, I let you in
And, with your cryogenic touch
You froze my heart, turned it to ice
Dropped it from the height of your malevolence
And broke my heart
And broke me while at it

My compass led me to the magnetic North
A place I thought would bring me joy all my days
A person I thought was the one for me
But once I got there, I found out I was wrong
The place, the person I found was perfect
But was not the utopia I was searching for
Though the aurorae here intrigued the eyes
The heart was not comfortable
The eyes liked what it witnessed
But the heart didn't like what it felt, or what it didn't
And once I stood at the magnetic North
Is when I realized I had a true North
My compass, my heart led me to another North
And so, I followed it towards the other North
A way from the doppelganger
And when I finally got there, utopia opened up
My true North was perfect to a tee
And when I stood at my true North
Everywhere else was south, all else was vanity
A place, a person bringing bliss
Though aurora doesn't show up here
The heart is at peace, and I am calm
This is what I call my true Home